My not so secret Secret Part 1
October 7th, 2015 I had gastric sleeve surgery. It was exactly 2 years ago and I am still not at my goal weight ( or even within reach). I feel like when most people think about weight loss surgery, they think it's an easy fix. They think if you just make your stomach smaller, you will eat less and you will lose all the weight and life will be grand. They also think that it's the easy way out and that if you just worked harder, you wouldn't need it. Well, from personal experience I can tell you that there is nothing easy or quick about it. I can also tell you that the whole reason we eat things is not because of the size of our stomach. We eat because it tastes good. We eat because we are bored. We eat because we want to have fun. We eat to drown our sorrows. We eat to be nice to others. Oh, and occasionally, we eat because we are hungry!
Please don't let me confuse things, having a smaller stomach is a great tool in my weight loss. When I am focused on eating for hunger, it helps me stay on track and eat less. My problem for most of the last two years and before is that I didn't eat for hunger, I ate for all the other reasons. The biggest reason why I had been eating was it tastes good and because it counted as a fun activity. When day to day life is a list of chores, work, and other people's to-do lists, I used food as my fun activity. It's quick and easy to brighten your day with a cupcake or a cheeseburger. At that moment it feels so good. It's like getting a shot of alcohol or a hint of cocaine ( i assume...I haven't tried...no judgment if you have...let me know if I am right).
Since my son was born in 2011, I have been coming closer and closer to realizing that I am a sugar addict and that I needed to give up sugar. You would have thought the surgery two years ago would've gotten me to that point but it didn't. After the surgery, I continued to eat the foods that were bad for me including sugar. But I still lost weight, to begin with because of course, I couldn't eat the same amount. The day of my surgery I weighed 321 pounds. Three months later I was 299. That is a decent weight loss but below average, for most of the surgery patients, I was seeing on Instagram. I felt like crap and realized that I had to do something to overhaul my life. January through July I was extremely focused. I did online fitness challenges that got me into tracking my food on MyFitnessPal. I ate meals from Fit Life foods 6 days a week. I worked out with a trainer, started running and did my first 5k under 15-minute miles! I did a YouTube workout every day. My work paid off and by the end of June, I was down to 274 ( 25 pounds lost)! I was super excited by my progress and decided I deserved a break for July 4th. Well, that break turned into 6 weeks and 6 pounds back! Note the pictures, The full body is Christmas 2015, the one with the weights is January 1, 2016, and the one where you see my dimples is right after my 5k in June!
I thought how could I let all this hard work go down the drain. I have to do something major. In comes the 30 Days to Healthy Living Plan from Arbonne International. I had heard of this plan before but I wasn't ready to commit to 30 Days with no Gluten, Dairy and mostly importantly Sugar! I realized that I was a year out from my surgery and I haven't event kept off 50 pounds. My favorite Instagrammers were losing 100 pounds or more at the one year mark. I had to try something major. It was major! Majorly life changing! In 30 days I lost over 10 pounds and finally got to the 260s ( 269 but still the 260s). Note the three picture comparison. That is Day 1 to Day 28. That was the biggest weight loss I had seen in a one month period! But beyond that, I start looking at food differently! I started thinking about toxins. I started thinking about eating to live instead of living to eat. I started thinking about food as fuel and not just a fun part of my day. After, the detox they coach you to have an 80/20 lifestyle. The first month I did that alright. 6 weeks after, I had only gained back .3 but then the holidays came!!
Note the pictures, The full body is Christmas 2016 ( much better than Christmas 2015) but I still had not given up sugar so that's me indulging the day after Christmas!
By Jan. 1, I was 276. Up 7 pounds from September but down 24 pounds in a year. My 2017 goal was to get my shit together and finally give up sugar and at least lose more than 24 pounds! On MLK day, I started my second 30 Days to Healthy Living Plan from Arbonne International. I felt amazing. After I fell off the clean eating wagon, I was feeling so fatigued at night that I couldn't read or work or do anything productive. I literally sat on the couch watching TV and eating! As soon as I started eating clean again, I got my energy back! Naturally!! I followed the plan to a tee for 29 days and day 30 for Valentine's Day. Damn, you commercial holiday! That day I had chocolate covered strawberries, cupcakes and pizza! It was so yummy and I said, that's is just a special treat! It's my 20% and tomorrow I will go back to my 80%. I had lost 9 pounds and was down to 266 ( even lower into the 260s, I could taste the 250s, I was so close!)
After this 30 Days , it all began to click...but not right after...stay tuned for part 2 of this story...